of red packets, and… finding a dress that doesn’t make you fat

this yr’s cny is/was mega early. :/ not a fan of festivals and occasions and celebrations so… meh~

but we had a really good dinner at home and i baked!

yumyum.

momsy made watermelon jelly.. which tasted nothing like watermelon. good job. (i kid about the latter)

looks so pretty.. (= i’ll need to make some soon.

on day 1 of cny we dressed up and stuff, and passed momsy her present.. like 7 months late.

haha. she was really pleased, i have the video, but my dad was like “no lah, it’s not a birkin”, and i don’t know if i should smack him for thinking i’ll buy something fake, or if people are just trying to lie to themselves…

and he’s omega thick skin, holding the bag when he didn’t pay for it. mm. i’m quite pleased i had the bag sitting at home for a month or so without her even realising it.

went to my uncle’s place first.

the sisters. (=

them swapping bags because let’s be honest.. who doesn’t love blue?!

found this pig rabbit thing… sis thought it was amusing.

dress from bkk. shoes from far east. nine west clutch. accessories/watch from juicy, hermes, random places.

bro tried his hand at posing. he bought his shirt specially for cny. seriously..

he’s such a pro if you ask me (=

our version of leonado’s haterz gna hate pose.

all of them in blue. as i said, who doesn’t love blue?!

family shot at extended relative’s house. (=

godma and i up to our nonsense, as usual.

yiyi!

that dude is called isaac too… and that’s my uncle behind me.

we then headed off to my dad’s client’s home. meh. makes me feel very sad when i see the house.

finally we’ve a pic of her! (=

went to my dad’s mom’s place and then another client’s place.. so that’s 5 houses in day 1. more than enough if you ask me, at least i didn’t dress up for nothing. uhm. yea to me that’s dressing up already. didn’t wear make up. bahah. can’t be bothered. maybe when i get married…

dinner at stellar

called my family 2 aunts and cass to have a meal at stellar where lamley works. (=

front of my dress.

back of my dress. ahhhh i love it. okay it’s my first frilly piece..

le pinky.

sis and view that can barely be seen..

le piggies, pigging out!

dad and his magical piece of bread!

parents enjoying themselves. dad doesn’t eat raw food (like me) so he got cod fish as his main, while i ate the sushi. we both got lobster/clam bisque courtesy of lamley! yummm

foie gras. tasted… okay i guess

sashimi! lighting’s bad, but my camera doesn’t has softflash/lowlight mode anymore!! -frowns-

dad’s cod fish. he says it’s better than the one at atlantis@republic plaza

happy lady w her food

the only thing i ate off the raw food platter. the weird eggs and caviar.

had the whole.. bucket to myself. it’s so cute!

our sushi came and it looked amazingggg. i couldn’t wait to eat, was very hungry :p haha. and it tasted so damn good.. it’s off the menu, so it was a nice and special touch (=

octopussy wasabi.

family!

happy parents, with huge bellies. hahaha

was quite stuffed (i had 7 pieces of sushi i think) but we trudged on and ordered dessert.

which was a really bad choice because the middle one sucked like hell! ahah. lychee something. the left one was creme brulee, not that bad, and the right was sticky date pudding, which was alright too i guess.

we headed upstairs for the view. i think that’s the best part of this restaurant. the view! the waiters are not “classy” to say the least, they don’t serve water, they knock things over soooo many times, they don’t clear your plates. and it’s not like the place was full. there were only 5 tables, inclu mine.

plus the person who picked up my call was.. urg. trying to seem like they only cater to the westerners (bloody suck ups!), saying “oh im not sure if there is space, let me check” and then kept telling me there might not be space blablablaaa. jizzus. but anw, yea. i won’t wanna head back again, even worse if ive to make the call

mbs! lovely view. loved the light display.

went back to the car and found a clk with the windows and sunthingy down..

couldn’t resist.

ohhh look at bby me.. okay background is mega ugly cos we’re in the process of removing the wallpaper!

okay gtta run now x

USS

went to USS to celebrate lamley’s birthday. (=
mmm i like theme parks i guess, in general, there are nice things to look at, i don’t really like crowds so i was a bit wary of that, plus it’s a saturday so… :/

but it turned out great! there wasn’t much of a crowd, thank goodness. the longest queue was probably 20mins, and the shortest.. i’d just have to walk through all the darn barriers and i’ll be able to sit the ride near immediately!

but in one word to describe the rides: cockblock. seriously the themepark was pathetic to say the least. considering how the rollercoasters were the only fun thing.. it says a lot!

hardworkin sis lookin at the maps.. if she wasn’t there i’d do the job so thank my stars i had her.. sometimes all i wanna do is chill and follow the crowd and not make decisions..

le brain and le pinky~

sat this tiny boat ride.. madagascar! loved it hahaha. cos it’s so silly and.. kinda lame tbh but still..

shrek 4d!

it was rather tame and fun except i screamed when the spiders dropped onto me bahahah.

we took the canopy ride, which was.. quite fun i guess, sitting facing the back is so much more fun! and we sat the kid’s coaster.. i was like ‘eyer confirm boring one’ and when we went down all i remembered was me shouting ‘wa lau eh!’ ahahahahhaha

went for the water show too…

walked over to to the mummy side..

oopz.

it looked like it was about to rain so sis and i dashed to sit the human coaster (red).. i’ve a fear of roller coasters, well i hate the big drop, but i love the cockscrews (bahaha) and everything else.. and i thought the red one will be less scary. haaha (obviously weong). anyway i was screaming like an idiot, and then hugging the seat, because there are no handle bars for me to grab, there’s nothing in front/beside for me to hold so i just hugged the seat ahaha.

there after we went to sit the blue one which was heaps awesome. preferred the cylon to human! (= then we went on the mummy ride.. which is when the word “cockblock” came about. it was absolutely boring and the twists and turns were so jerky.. not fun. even when it rolled backwards, before you got to the climax, it rolled back up.. erm okay. now i know how it feels to be a woman who didn’t.. you know.. yeah.

saw this funny ass statue ahaha. my knight~

oh yea i sat the teacup thingy… another cockblock. USS Y U NO FUN.

le monroe.

had lunch at a diner, kinda like what we have in melb.

transofrmers 3D! it was not too bad, but it def won’t be drawing crowds due because it’s just simulation, kinda boring! i got bored and took off the specs and looked at the interior instead..

after that… there wasn’t anything much to do.. so sis and i went to take the blue coaster, and sat the mummy twice in a row.. that was… bad… motion sickness hahahah.

le boyfriend!

was feeling so gross, hot, sweaty, have i mentioned disgusting? so that was eeeky. but yea, i wouldn’t say uss isn’t fun, or that it’s sucky. just, not as fun as i thought it’d be! again, expectations vs reality… glad i sat on the rollercoasters though :p

backdated new year. (=

oops really late, have been lazy. but here i am!
spent the evening with cass because we’re both too lazy to go out, and i hate crowds.

so cass ate a rainbow cupcake, and i told her we could make it there and then. really an impulse decision, it was 8pm and stuff. had most of the things at home but we drove out to get some stuff..

mixing all the ingredients to make the batter

dolled the stuff into different bowls..

le peacock.

sis joined in the fun, and cass “allowed” her to do the inferior colours, purple and orange. HAHAHA. yea we feel that some colours are superior to others.

cancer, anybody?

got dad to do one for momsy.. to the right there’s cass spoiling the pic haah

masterpiece!

cass’s work

recipies for cancer.

unfortunately my oven’s down, and all i have is a broiler.. which.. killed it. haha

it looked really gross, and yes, orange is such an ugly colour, so is purple.. they spoilt the cake! ahaha

sis had a huge ass box of sparkle thingys, and we had some fun. they’re the mega smokey/whistling kind.. hopefully i woke the neighbourhood up

indian neighbours came out to join in the fun

((=

it was a fun and slack night.

Weight woes

Ever since I’ve been back people have been harping about how fat I’ve become. Yea fine, bot all use the word fat directly, but the meaning is the same (psychologically, at least)

you’ve put on weight

Seriously, what the fuck?!

Since when is it acceptable in society to use that as a form of salutation? The last I remembered, my mother taught me manners. And it didn’t just happen once.

1) met friends at brewerkz. When I said “hi”, my guy ‘friend’ was like “wa.. You.. Hmm.. Look.. Different”. I got annoyed and said “you mean fat?” and he laughed and said “ya”

What the fuck?? Is that how you say hi? Haven’t seen you in a year and should I ask why you still look the same, having your right hand as your girlfriend?

2) went to church. Lady was being mega rude asking me why I’m only in church that day after being back for one month. And then she said “wa you put on weight. Am I right” and I stared at her and snapped “no I lost weight” and she tried to cover up by sayin “oh I meant you.. Grew.. Became more mature”

Bitch please, it’s because of people like you I avoid church. All the inanities, askin what I’m doin, when I’m graduating. Not interested. If you’re so concerned you’d remember when my parents told you. Fuck? If you really just ‘wanna say hi’, just come up and smile ad say hi?! What’s with the stupid comments?

3) early reunion dinner. Aunt came over and said “wow you’ve put on weight”. She spent even say hi or anything. I flare at her and walk away.

4) complained to my mom about the aunt. She laughed and said “she’s not the only one who said that”

No shit people? What’s wrong with all of you?! Let’s be transparent about this okay? In end 2010? I was 55kg. Now I’m 52kg. How the heck have I “put on weight”?

And you’re really wondering why im takin a fuckload of pills every single day? When I don’t eat, you complain I’m starving myself. When I eat you tell me I’ve put on weight. Is there any way to shut you guys up?

I can’t deny I care about what people think, but that’s another issue altogether. Singaporeans are getting more rude in general, Asians keep placing an emphasis on how one should be stick-thin and they use your past as a benchmark.

Excuse me, I was 16 when I was 43kg. Is that how you really want me to look? A bag of bones and depressed, but able to fit into size -10 clothes or something? Obviously from then I’ve put on weight? And you wonder why girls are killing themselves over weight issues?

I don’t see you telling a 130kg person in their face that they’ve out on weight so why are you picking on me? Because im a size 6/8 top and 8/10 bottoms, I deserve this shit you’re throwing at me?

No I don’t. I don’t need to put up with your stupidity, or your insensitivity. No one should have to deal with that. We’re all made differently, that’s why clothes have different sizes, assholes. If you middle aged women can’t get rid of your muffin top, i don’t see how you’ve the right to make any comments on y weight, and to my face. How rude can you get?

And you’re asking why the younger generation is so rude? Maybe it’s because you’re equally rude, and hey guess what, you started it by opening that filthy mouth of yours.

So excuse me while you continue harping on how I’ve put on weight. I’m off to buy myself a nice unhealthy breakfast. Oh, and the next time i stare or glare or roll my eyes at you, just be thankful that I’m polite enough to interest you with a sarcastic remark.

Hit me:

I need to get this shit off my chest… really angsty and I haven’t done this shit in years but here it is.

So I’ve this friend, A.

We’re just friends, nothing much. Talk once every few weeks? 

But his gf came on fb one day telling me to like, back off and shit. Apparently she read his messages with me and she’s unhappy and all. Which is dumb, because if you’ve seen what I sent, it’s all 

1) in jest, random jokes
2) you’d know what I have said to him.. (so why the heck are you so pissed? not like I’m the one who cheated on you what?)

i’m like err yea sure whatever makes you happy lah. I mean I’m in aus, he’s in sg, what does she think can happen, seriously…? And both of them are old enough to get married. By old I mean she’s… 30++++. I tell the gf i’ll just, not talk to him and whatever, make her happy. (that is after we exchanged so many redundant messages on fb)

So A disappeared off fb for a bit, telling me he’ll explain and all. no sweat. he sometimes talks to me on twitter and text like once or twice and that’s it. and then tonight, he asked if i’m free to meet and i thought shit hit the fence again and I sent cass home before meetin him. told her i’m just gna see what he says and not meet anymore.

Turns out nothing’s wrong, everything’s fine. and we just talk for a bit. And i asked him why he deleted his fb and he has the cheek to tell me….

“Oh, i blocked you on fb”

ahhhh. fuck you lah! seriously? he claims the gf ‘forced’ him to block me, to which he readily agreed to? Eh, if you’re going to far as to block me, why not delete my number/twitter page and shit? Why are you going behind your gf’s back to talk to me? Tryna make it seem like i’m the third party? seriously? Or just push the blame to me saying I keep coming on to you every time you guys quarrel? Don’t you have better things to do??

I mean he’s inherently selfish.. geez, haven’t met a more self-centered person than him. So he’s protecting himself by lying to both parties? Eh dude, friendship only leh, why must hide until like that. If she doesn’t want you to be friends with me, then don’t be lah? Not being my friend.. is that such a loss?? No what. And to block me… omg.. can you guys just move on?

So naturally I got majorly pissed, I mean why must I deal with this shit? Never even do anything wrong, when he tells me his shit I just listen (I can’t just say ‘eh i dont wanna hear’ right) and that’s about it, what so shameful?

Urg, just damn annoyed at “adults” who have no guts to do anything. And I told him I don’t really care if we’re friends anymore, because he’s not being fair to me, and I dont deserve to be treated this way..

And he said he’d see me soon. -scoffs- I really meant it when I said I won’t wanna meet you or speak to you anymore so……. 

 

Okay done. Good riddance to guys who can’t make decisions and stick by them. Should have seen it coming when he didn’t apologise or explain or clear the air when the gf cyber attacked me. ~blah.

christmas and cups.

didn’t celebrate christmas, but met up with the crazy people (i don’t really know what else to call them) for a day of fun..

well i had fun dressing up, if that counts. (=

had lunch at some middle eastern place at holland v. it’s beside TCC if i’m not wrong, probably where eskibar used to be (omg does anyone else remember that place? heaps old!). price is about $20 per person..

beef kebab. yummy.

didn’t try the chicken one, but i’m guessing it was good too (=

lamb kebab. omg super good i’m def going back for either the beef or lamb one (=

(=

took a bus back to my place cos we’re cool like that

went to sheng shiong to buy stuff for our steamboat. it was really cheap like 6bucks per person. lol. and then headed to my place to play games/slack/exchange presents..

i’ll just show some of the funnier presents..

stack of posters for anime mad people

gold bar door stopper

my drum chop sticks!

my hand made cups~ okay i bought them and spent 2 full days and nights drawing and glazing them. hand made stuff are the best!!

uber cute boxers!

steamboat!

and then i got really tired and knocked out. damnyoumalibu!

kx’s monkey-themed birthday

celebrated kx’s birthday at my place. (= shabu shabu, monkey themed!

her really pretty monkey banana chocolate cake made by joyce! yes haha chocolate banana (=

quite in love with my t shirt..

by accident we used relighting candles..

drinking from our goblets(=

yay i’m the tallest!

panda was stepping on my legs.. but that didn’t deter me.. or my heart shaped boxers..

the hols continue…

updates since i’ve been back from bangkok! just 5 days…

went to make a new set of retainers.. hello bad mood me..
went to meet dad for lunch.. (=

my dad really spoils me.. could have gone to the hawker center ($2 chicken rice) but noooo… we went to some restaurant high up..

place: atlantic at republic plaza
price: about $60+ per person, but $40+ for set lunch..

we each got the set lunch.. cos the menu is honestly quite limited.. i ate the bread they provided and was full.. was thinking that my parents will kill me so i stuffed my face with the food )=

mum and her tuna belly as a starter..

dad and his corn chowder as a starter.. i got the same thing as him..

for mains there were 3 choices..

cod fish.. which my dad and i had..

lamb shoulder which mum had..

third one was carbonara.. but i didn’t feel like eating pasta..

for desserts there were 2 choices..

mango sago with passion fruit ice cream.. i had this..yucks. too sweet. i’m not a fan of desserts anyway..

mum and dad both had brownie with vanilla ice cream.. looked ~pretty normal, so i didn’t bother..

view form the top. of course this doesn’t beat one rafffles, but it’s still really high..

lunch was okay i guess, if not for the view i probably will not want to go back again, there’s nothing great about the food.. haha.. but the service was impeccable (=

at night i met cass, teck, qi, lamley and junny for dinner.. different tastes restaurant outside my place!

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oh yeah, went for kim’s birthday and i wore this..

such a pretty blue dress! happy with how it turned out.. bought it from f21.. (= i really love blue dresses a whole lot haha. got my heels from taiwan, clutch from ninewest in melb, rings from random places and the things on my wrist (err idk what to call them) from juicy and hermes..

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josh came to find me at the airport (on tues) after i touched down.. yay!

went over to my cousin’s house to hang out and play with charsiewpao~

my bb is so cute! he doesn’t play with the toys i bought for him though )=

he preferred josh over me.. )=

tried to learn how to play the euphonium. no idea how to spell, yes i realise i’m holding it wrong..

charsiewpao was afraid of the sound and he was hiding behind the sofa. poor thing.

okay haha err maybe that’s why he doesn’t like me that much..

went for dinner with my aunts and cuz and the poor dog was so sad )=

we had ju shin jung..
service was not bad i guess, because there was this buffet with lotsa pork and i didn’t wanna have the buffet (obviously) and i told them i CANT eat pork.. and they were like oh oh you need a seperate table for yourself? blablabla… aye.

i ordered a plate of beef.. but ate the side dishes and was bursting alr.. whoops..

nah for all you pork eaters out there..

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that’s about my adventures for now..

bangkok baby!

was a last min decision to head to bangkok w my sis and her friends.. didn’t really wanna “tag” along but i wanted to get away from everything.. and just.. walk around in an unfamiliar place..

went there from the 9-13, stayed an extra day while the rest flew off.

what luck i had 3 seats to myself.. slept in so many positions haha

hotel was cosy.. the bed took up most of the space, but it was all good..

even came with a mini bar.. (not in pic)

was about 4ish 5 when we left our hotel.. took a tuktuk to platinum mall.. some wholesale place..
just the 4 of us cos my sis was attending a silly concert in sg.

didn’t buy many things, sadly! the quality isn’t that good, price isn’t that cheap either. of course, coming from melbourne, everything is cheap, but given the standard of living over there i’m pretty sure they killed our wallets..

went for a massage at night..
opted for just the head, shoulders, hands and leg one.. cannot let them touch my whole body! i’ll probably sprain every part :/

the lady kept putting her finger to her lips.. yea cos i kept laughing and squirming.. it’s pretty clear which places can’t be touched..
thighs, neck, lower back… yeapp.

she used this wooden stick to press my fingertips and at first.. uhh very active imagination.. i thought she was taking a knife to slice my fingers so i sat up in shock and looked at my hand. :/

sis joined us the next day.. went to explore the top floor..

ahhh pretty pool..

took a cab to chatuchak..

split up with the rest.. felt quite bad because my sis was with me instead of her friends.. and it’s her holiday with them.. :/ but it was quite fun to shop with her. and her mad bargaining skills.. she got us some pretty dresses (=

semi-dragged her to the animal part of the market and began to scoop bunnies up shamelessly while shoving the camera to her..

this bunny is really cute. but it’s right paw is a stub. )= wanted to kidnap it..

we fell asleep in the cab back to our hotel :/ guess we woke up early.. went for yet another massage.. i only did it cos i didn’t wanna stone in the lobby for an hour.. and the lobby is freezing.. the lady told me to stop laughing again.. grr…

went to terminal 21.. think it’s a new mall! love the concept..

every floor is a diff city..

deco, lighting, everything was really good. bright coloured lights.. quite pretty. my only gripe was that the escalators are majorly long/high.. i’ve a fear of heights, and i don’t really dare to take an escalator from a higher level to a lower level.. have some problems (physical coordination) with that..

headed to patpong.. not really my type of place i guess.. sleazy bars, hamsup farangs… every angmoh over there.. we all know why they’re there.. urg.

headed to siam center on sunday..
there was the mdm tussauds museum, which i wanted to go, but my sis said there’d be lotsa thai stars there which i won’t even know, so it wouldn’t be worth my money.. and she has already been to the one in hk.. decided not to go because i don’t wanna go alone.. wax figurines scare me.. plus who’s gonna take incriminating photos for me? i mean, why else will i go to the wax museum.. hahaha

but with luck they put one dude out for display!

yay nicholas cage!!

look kinda short beside him.. :/ i felt his stubble.. so gross..

and i just had to do this..

yea cos otherwise it isn’t fun.. saw those army boys staring at me hahaha. no la down there no buldge lah. just flat flat one like female..

walked over to siam paragon and saw tom cruise~ oh yea baby lucky day..

bahahaha

walked around quite a bit and went to this seafood place dad recommended.. i remember coming here when i was 16 (=

yay to me being a pig..

went back to platinum mall cos my sis didn’t go there previously.. after that she went for a massage while i went back to the hotel and had room service..

quite good a meal for $10 sgd! (= granted i didn’t really touch the steak.. too much fat. but the ceasar salad was yummy..

on monday the rest were going to fly back in the evening.. but they wanted to go back to siam so we did.. once again my sis didn’t wanna follow them to walk around.. so i went with her to mbk to buy stuff for our family.. did our nails too (i could have done a better job)

it was a mad rush to our hotel after lunch.. tuktuk guy took us on a joy ride.. asshole…

while they left for the hotel, i took a cab to my cousin’s place..

bought this for his daughter. hoho. it’s so cute!

even has wings. -melts-

listened to him while he told me about the history of krav maga.. and how they train.. it’s quite exciting, actually..

this is his gym room.. mega cool

so yea he taught me a few moves, gave me a lesson… i’m wondering if he got annoyed with me cos i kept laughing..

and a whole lot of guns on the rack..

quite a pity i couldn’t ask him to take pictures for me while i hold the damn guns.. or to even take a photo with him.

yea because i’m like supposedly an adult (though i really didn’t behave like one at his place i kept laughing like an idiot).. and it’s our first time meeting in like what, 10 yrs? everyone’s asking if it’s really weird or something but it isn’t.

so yea anw i didn’t ask for a pic with him because i was afraid he’d sad no and hurt my ego. he’s this like. macho dude… and i’m this.. loser from sg who crashed at his place for one night. haha.

i took off the next morn at 630. cuz didn’t wake up to say bye to me -sad face- #foreveralone

and that marks the end of my trip! ((= enjoyable, i guess… but maybe thailand has ceased to interest me.. there’s only so much you can shop, or enjoy the road side stalls…

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i don’t know how but i always imagine people to be perfect before i meet them and of course they’ll disappoint me, but then again, it’s just me i guess. which idiot thinks people are perfect?

like for my cuz and i at first we hit off well but then at night when he bashed singapore saying there’s nothing to do.. i was just like -raises hands- okay i can’t say much because i’m contented just hanging out with my friends..

:/ expectations x reality i guess. not that i didn’t enjoy it, i just expected something a whole lot nicer, different.. like.. family..? being able to talk and joke a whole lot.. like how i do with my guy friends..

but ok i’ll give it.. he’s a dad.. so it’s probably a different ball game.. at first i didn’t feel that i was intruding but when i left that morning it was quite an empty feeling.. hmm.

/ends emo rant.