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obsessive blogging. cant help it :/ :s
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i’d pay anyone $100 who can teach me everything on grammar, and help me through 10chapters of the bloody little brown handbook.

im serious. someone frickin teach it to me now. i’ll give you the money.

i feel so sick my stomach’s churning. hj’s helping a little on it, cos we take the same course (duh). so yeh. i think miss important is helping too ahahah.

help, anyone?

like that, how to pass writt comm?!

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i seriously feel so fucking stupid now.
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“in the quarter, atrists sell tourists their paintings”
and i’ve to identify the verb as either transitive, intransvitive, or linking
there’s an direct object, indirect object, subject complement and an object complement.

HOW TO IDENTIFY?! fuck.

i guess im not that smart after all.
never was, never will
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i hate feeling so dumb. argh.

seriously out to get me.
make fun.
go on.
cos you’ll never know how i feel.
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miss important. lololol.

urh

i simply need to get this off my chest. i’ve learnt loads from social psych.

a lot. i now know why he said the things he said, althought i still wish he would take them back. haha.

i did something worthless. i apologised.
why worthless? cos he doesn’t care. FOOL!

here’s what i said.
hey, i duno how to say this to you. i know its been veryyy long since it happened. but i read social psych and i realised like, i’ve been realy horrid to you, as in, my words and stuff, and the whole process of communication. i feel very guilty about how i’ve treated you and stuff in the past and although i didn’t quite agree with what you did, i do understand why you said the stuff you said. its taught me a lot. umm, yeh that’s all.

here’s what he said.
oh ok

i was definately expecting something much more than that. but what else can i ask for? maybe its fated that everything i did was my fault blablabla. im not trying to patch things up. i just want you to know. that’s all. but yeh, the replies im getting, its disappointing.

but then again, you don’t care

i’ve wasted enough time. back to studies.

mel i hope i have helped you in some way or another.

studying/

im currently readin up on social psych. interesting topics, but i feel they shouldn’t be tested. tut tut.

ever felt that you wanted to look like another person? like, you’d see her and go, ‘wow, she looks gorgeous. totally amazing. everyone’s saying she’s beautiful. i wish i had her face’.

ever wondered? i have, loads of times.

its not insecurity. maybe everyone goes thru that phase. but oh well.
sometimes, looks really count. cos first impression is very important.

and it sucks. cos im no good looker.
people go ‘you’ve nice eyes’. thank you.

am i pretty? i don’t reckon. )=
bahhhh.

another issue on insecurity. look what boredem does to you.

the static is making my hands feel fuzzy.

i think adium should.. uh oh well. i dont know.

i really wanna get thru this phase.

sometimes i wonder. actually, loads of times.
do people actually appreciate you?
or do they treat you like dirt?
what you do for others, do they really apprieciate it?
do they return the favour?
do they care about you?
or are yo just another fallen leaf in the wind.

i just wanna know.
cos i dont think i deserve to be treated that shitty (to me) way

tired, already.

im super sleepy. i’d pay someone (not razi cos he would make use of money haha) to do my work man. )= basket, im already complaining. should stay in sec 1 to top the cohort.

1) radio work. 500 word report. i dont even listen to the radio.
2) iac. proj, im the coordinator for the meeting. urgh.
3) speech for uh, speech comm. due on fri.
4) presentation for writ comm. need to meet the mates.

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im so sleepy. omg. today was alright, i guess? until….
i saw joel. haha. (nth to do w above sentence)

well at least say hi and stuff lah, know she’s important to you, but then again, say a freaking hi, la?! will kill you, meh?
maybe uh? nevermind.

gotta be in school at 9. for mac course. URGH i hate it! damn stupid, the computer. even lecturers hate it. down with mac, down with MeL!

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i make NO sense.
and the whole class knows i like talking about sex.

today we had freewriting, about cigerattes. mine got chosen to be read out. oh goodie. and i wrote sex is a better topic. i can write so much more.

im NOT a sex maniac, for goodness sake.
i like our speech comm lect. (= she’s smart, she’s tall, she’s beautiful. what more can you ask for in a woman? (=

now im gonna do notes for writ comm and social psyc.

sounds so fun, hor? trust me. it isn’t. cos you’re suposedly grown up. but anyway textbooks beat computers anytime. seriously. you think its all so cool and stuff, but it hurts your eyes like crap.

i’ve downloaded so many lects and stuff. )= crap week 1 has gone. i look forward to the next 3 years in Np.

should i join a cca? NRA (people, shut up. maybe i can dance. maybe. lololol), ISAN (skating).. or what?
maybe i’ll be kuku and join later. but then i’ll have no friends!

sherwin! sorry if i keep making fun of you! you’re just so funny and nice.
i think you make a good pai, with melissa. lolol.
we should hang out more.

met zhihao also. i think im gonna get smacked by him the next time i open my mouth to “insult” him. ahhaah.

gone are the days where i was so free and happy.