just a note.

why isn’t God the first person i have in my mind?
why isn’t He the first person i should turn to?

Aren’t we supposed to put the one we love most, right in the front?

i want You to be proud of me.
Forgive, and maybe tell me i’ve done well.

If i should start putting God first..

life’s mystery.

coping with everything.
down to the lifeless soul.
wondering if i’ll pull through.

oh God give the strength..

hooooo!

school’s gonna end.
soon.

blablabla..
ramblings on and on…

doggyworld.
where i’d lose.

where did your consience go to?
your big butt, i guess..

dream a lil dream of me..

i slept early,
:/
was too tired.

anyway i had a weird dream..
really weird..

i don’t know what i was doing,
but then i had to apparently go for tuition.
chinese tuition, to be exact, at bukit batok (where my ex chinese tutor lived)
and my mum called hj to pick me up from home and send me to tuition.
even though we were not together anymore.
(and he could drive in my dream!)
tuition was from 7.30 to 9..
but then hj came darn late. at like 8+, saying he forgot the time..

so in the car,
he started saying the most disgusting stuff ever.
i can’t type it down, it’s just too :/
but it was obscene and vulgar..

and then somehow i was thinking ‘hey where exactly is my tutor’s place’ cos my tutor moved to a centre near her house..
and hj didn’t know where and suddenly we were lost. :/
and had to go for the 9pm tuition instead..

and then i met joel, and my brother..
i can’t remember what else we did lah.

it’s just the vulgar and obscene stuff that made me remember the dream. :s
eew.