Weight woes

Ever since I’ve been back people have been harping about how fat I’ve become. Yea fine, bot all use the word fat directly, but the meaning is the same (psychologically, at least)

you’ve put on weight

Seriously, what the fuck?!

Since when is it acceptable in society to use that as a form of salutation? The last I remembered, my mother taught me manners. And it didn’t just happen once.

1) met friends at brewerkz. When I said “hi”, my guy ‘friend’ was like “wa.. You.. Hmm.. Look.. Different”. I got annoyed and said “you mean fat?” and he laughed and said “ya”

What the fuck?? Is that how you say hi? Haven’t seen you in a year and should I ask why you still look the same, having your right hand as your girlfriend?

2) went to church. Lady was being mega rude asking me why I’m only in church that day after being back for one month. And then she said “wa you put on weight. Am I right” and I stared at her and snapped “no I lost weight” and she tried to cover up by sayin “oh I meant you.. Grew.. Became more mature”

Bitch please, it’s because of people like you I avoid church. All the inanities, askin what I’m doin, when I’m graduating. Not interested. If you’re so concerned you’d remember when my parents told you. Fuck? If you really just ‘wanna say hi’, just come up and smile ad say hi?! What’s with the stupid comments?

3) early reunion dinner. Aunt came over and said “wow you’ve put on weight”. She spent even say hi or anything. I flare at her and walk away.

4) complained to my mom about the aunt. She laughed and said “she’s not the only one who said that”

No shit people? What’s wrong with all of you?! Let’s be transparent about this okay? In end 2010? I was 55kg. Now I’m 52kg. How the heck have I “put on weight”?

And you’re really wondering why im takin a fuckload of pills every single day? When I don’t eat, you complain I’m starving myself. When I eat you tell me I’ve put on weight. Is there any way to shut you guys up?

I can’t deny I care about what people think, but that’s another issue altogether. Singaporeans are getting more rude in general, Asians keep placing an emphasis on how one should be stick-thin and they use your past as a benchmark.

Excuse me, I was 16 when I was 43kg. Is that how you really want me to look? A bag of bones and depressed, but able to fit into size -10 clothes or something? Obviously from then I’ve put on weight? And you wonder why girls are killing themselves over weight issues?

I don’t see you telling a 130kg person in their face that they’ve out on weight so why are you picking on me? Because im a size 6/8 top and 8/10 bottoms, I deserve this shit you’re throwing at me?

No I don’t. I don’t need to put up with your stupidity, or your insensitivity. No one should have to deal with that. We’re all made differently, that’s why clothes have different sizes, assholes. If you middle aged women can’t get rid of your muffin top, i don’t see how you’ve the right to make any comments on y weight, and to my face. How rude can you get?

And you’re asking why the younger generation is so rude? Maybe it’s because you’re equally rude, and hey guess what, you started it by opening that filthy mouth of yours.

So excuse me while you continue harping on how I’ve put on weight. I’m off to buy myself a nice unhealthy breakfast. Oh, and the next time i stare or glare or roll my eyes at you, just be thankful that I’m polite enough to interest you with a sarcastic remark.