building a bear.. takes courage.

Look!

happy girl with a paper box.

so we’ve celebrated p’s birthday.. sort of. errr. well there wasn’t cake but we did it on valentine’s day. and j always wanted to get kx to do the embarrassing bear pledge, but we figured j would have liked it better as there’s a dinosaur..

met kx and p at bugis in the morn to buy dresses for j BUT IT WASN’T THERE ANYMORE. so we practically wasted time.. urgh. had lunch at this jap place (BUTTER SCALLOPS) it was heeavvveennn. also, i had indigestion so.. :/

and then we just started walkin toward the BABW hahha. i don’t have many pics.. cos p and kx have their professional cams, mine’s just an s100.. so.. and i was doin the vid. oh yea, ought to get to it!

my housie and i! and a.. dragon in the house.

(=

took a cab to mt faber safra

the room is huge! (they wanted to sing at kbox btw) haha i was like BED? MINE. and i ran up the small flight of stairs and plopped myself there.

i quite liked the decor actually, pretty!

nice and cosy for the 4 of us. really quite good. cos we don’t like… sit properly.. we just roll around ahahah. i can vouch for that cos kx has literally rolled on me while i was lying down. that creep.

and they got cosy and i’m like. bitch plz, so much space in the room!

that’s how lazy i was. didn’t even hold the mike.

j’s dino, bob.

was a reallllly chill session. we basically just let the songs play while we did silly things.

p brought her polaroid camera, so we had lotsa funnn.

left at about 7, was in a rush, which was a good thing, no time to be sad because it was sat, and i left on sun!

okay off to shower nowwwww.

#forever alone

can’t believe i didn’t blog about valentine’s day. err. hhaha okay nearly one month late, but better late than never. PLUS. i dressed up so.. i reckon i have the right to take many pictures (not self shots, i hate that) so nothing goes to waste!

when i say i dressed up, i actually only mean i bothered to wear eyeliner. haha. yea yea no other weird eye thingys or face powders and shit like that.

anyhoooo. the plan for the day was to head to marmalade pantry for a nice lunch with kx and j. p couldn’t make it. -boo-

headed down to school to say brb to dee first.

rly quite like j’s skirt even though i will look shit in it haha

erm so we got to MP but it was closed. hahaha. dumbasses. it opens from 3pm and i booked for 2pm. and so we decided to head to ahyat! haha! dim summm.

we were the last customers, they ran out of egg tarts and i’m like.. who the hell runs out of egg tarts? )= and they rushed us to order so we went on a rampage as if there was a zombie apocalypse and that would be our last meal..

this could easily feed 1-2 more person/people.

had a reaaaalllly satisfying lunch. plus we took super long to eat, everyone left, only the staff were standing around. and these few guys (i assume they work there) were stoning at another table watching us eat and probably laughing cos we ordered too much. but it was sooo worth it we finished most of it. lol. i had everything to do with prawns, and glutinuous rice.

then we left and decided it was time to take pictures.

i really quite like blue :/

and also, yay for a relatively good hair day. you know how icky sg can get.

went back to my place (yes, we’re thaaat lazy) and started on the great plannn. we were gna head to p’s house to surprise her at night. but first, for us to unwrap our presents! i looooveee how we make our presents it’s always so much better! cards and everything else.

chocs from j

kx’s really cute concept of breaking her heart. didn’t wanna tear it but there were sweets inside and i had to rescue them

oh look what i received. a BIRTHDAY card from kx. for 2011

bahaha. she knows me soooo well

inside. -_-

also, i had been busy the past few days so i wrote all my cards on the day itself in front of them. yea damn sincere.

got them flowers.. okay as much as i dislike flowers cos they’re useless and i think i can put the money to better use, to buy something that wouldn’t die.. i can’t deny it’s a nice sweet gesture to get flowers. so yea. :/ BUT I HAD TO DO IT MY STYLE. so it won’t be sweetoverload.txt

ahahaha designed by MEEE. and the wonderful memes online.

see they aren’t too upset about it ahaha

le momsy.

le bro who was going out that night. (hot stuff you see)

we pretty much spent the rest of the day trying to decorate p’s notebook, and packing her present. and laughing at stupid things online.

ta-dahhh. with really random and retarded stuff. lazy to rotate.

w the cover. yellow because… her hello kitty is yellow.

i have no idea how we took hours to do what we did, but we only left my place at 8..

i actually took a video but.. you know how people can say the dumbest things on video? HAAHAH. so it’ll remain in the vault.

err ya instant noodles cos i saw her tweet the day before, she had no more instant noodles at home or something. practical! successkid.jpg

j and kx got her a t shirt! of sorts. okay a top, i don’t really know how to classify clothes.

removed alllllll of p’s toys, hid them in the cupboard. surprisingly she took a really long time to find out that they were gone..

see, she’s rly pleased with my card + poem. who wouldn’t be? it’s original..

ta-dah! so we pretty much did get to celebrate it together.

then i went home, and headed to k’s place to meet for a bit, then i met m for supper. wanton noodles! which meant i ate allll the noodles and gave him the wanton. -_-

okay i’m heading off to school now, hopefully i’ll get to updating this place… soon.

week 1 commences

still alive…
it’s week one tomorrow, not sure how the sem is gonna be.

i’m hoping it’ll be a really hectic semester for me.
it’s the last semester, i plan to make it a blastttt!
study, write my essays, hopefully get a job -crossing fingers for my internship-, party, party harder, serve more in ocf (okay weird i just put this after partying. brb hanging head in shame)

i’d also like to learn to forgive. forgiving idiots, obnoxious assholes, retards, stupid girls, whatnot. yea. i gotta do that.

i’ve been on my toes for a bit the whole month of feb, not really good. i’m so tired of fighting battles on my own. the worst thing? they’re personal battles, it doesn’t involve anyone but me. what a toughie to crack eh. :/ but i’m certain i’ll pull through stronger.

and discover more about myself too. had a weekend at the leaders’ retreat, where i had the worst sleep ever, but that’s another story for the day. anyhoo, i talked to quite a few people about issues, got prayed for, prayed for people (okay just one, i have no guts to go ‘hey lemme pray for you’), listened to the pastors, listened to my fellow leaders spew encouragement. it really, really helped me feel more at ease.

sometimes i wish i wasn’t so vulnerable on the inside. wish i wasn’t so broken, so messed up. my thoughts and actions clearly contradict each other, and i don’t really know how to untangle it all. being at war with yourself is heaps worse than being at war with others. i mean, for the latter, all you gotta do is kill them, right? jk. 0.0

i know i’ve to make a decision sooner or later, to decide that i need help getting out of the mess i’ve created for myself. problem is, though i’m not exactly happy wading in a pool of shit, i seem to be enjoying the struggles. simply because i know i’ll survive this. in weeks to come, i’ll look back and mock myself. maybe that’s why i’m kinda chill with whatever comes.

anyway, time to get myself prepped for school! haven’t been doing that much since i got back. here’s what i’ve been up to.

mon: touchdown, unpacked a bit. napped, went for my band’s meeting, and then off to the pub to chill in the cold (see whut i did there)
tue: unpacked, cleaned my home. don’t think i did anything. oh, suffered from insomnia.
wed: interview, sidney myer bowl, then suzuki night market. and chillin at oc.
thu: o-week open house. postered and tended band’s booth.
fri: o weel open house. to the beach with people at oc (i don’t really know how to classify them). party at nikki’s.
sat: leader’s retreat.
sun: leader’s retreat. napped. china bar for dinner with oc. $4 pizzas i need to get my ass back there i love the cheese pizza.

also… praying for a positive response from the interview.
and learning to let go. HAH. okay bye!

lunch at cedele

met up w a buncha people on sunday. bunch because i don’t really know how to group us..

it was joel, mandy, shy and kim..
met joel, shy and kim while on a trip to china.. but before that i knew of shy and kim through the ex.. classmates or something.
and then mandy is joel’s laaady.

okay so anyway we wanted to eat at epicurious, but changed our minds and had lunch at cedele instead. haha.

my laksa pasta. pasta cos i wanted something doughy, laksa cos i wanted something asian. bad choice. HAHA.

(=

shyshyshy-2inch

no idea why i had such a large appitite, but i had cake 0.0

after a million attempts.

shy thinks i have a sheepish smile… i think my sis will beg to differ and say i have the smile of a perv. )=

LOUSY GUY WHO CAN’T TAKE PROPER PHOTOS. don’t know why he can’t tell us that someone’s head is being blocked. knn.

took a mini trip to the railway. love shy’s polo dress!! have been trying to find one that fits but to no avail. )=

tried using a self timer when it started to rain. so we went back to the shops AND WHAT DYA KNOW IT STOPPED RAINING. IN LIKE 1 MIN.

used the self timer again.

sat in kim’s car and vowed never to leave the seat, even if i had to be dragged out. headed to clementi to walk for a bit and then to my place to slack. it’s been soooo long since we did something like this.

had dinner at golden spoon w my dad grandpa and bro. (=

there was a long wait so we took pictures ahaha.

bro’s being silly..

me showing my poor burnt arm. )= plus i had a plaster (went for a jab in the day before heading to sentosa) so there’s a lighter patch.. sadx100

food at golden spoon wasn’t tt good. but service was good, especially from the guy who tended to us. my dad isn’t the most easy going person.. but then again, better my dad than me screaming.. or my sis. :/ oops anger management obviously haha.

tried on kim’s specs. maybe i’ll get a thin black framed one.. when the current pair spoils. haha.

ahhh it’s so late, gotta shower and sleep. exciting day tmr!

Day 27 – A picture of yourself and a family member

(= Realised i’ve never really mentioned my brother.. so here he is.
he’s really tall, and he’s 3 years younger than me.

One of the sweetest guy’s i’ve met..
few years back we stayed up making a rainbow vanilla cake for his then gf. (gf is allergic to choc) and he was so nervous about it.

we went shopping for his then gf’s xmas present too. walked around many times and he looked at every single thing. and when he found the right present.. like every normal lady (lol) he chose the best piece..

he’s quite vain.. which is good i guess. he dresses well.. he takes really long in the bath room, maybe 45mins..

he gets my jokes (unlike my sis) and he laughs at them. and we are always laughing at 9gag stuff, and random jokes from tv shows.. or when i ask him a serious question he thinks it’s a riddle because i’m hardly serious..

and when we used to play l4d2 together. he taught me to love cars, about fishing, drumming.. so many things i like doing because he started on it first and i learned. and prawning.. boy-ish stuff that make me who i am (=

he’s quite innocent too haha. or rather he hates it when i joke about sex, or when i make inappropriate comments.

-live update-
bro: do you know how people die?
me: they stopped breathing?
bro: -_-.. ->swear he rolled his bitchy eyes at me!!

okay as i was saying.. like yesterday.. cos he has a sorethroat
sis: eh you know what char always says to me when i get a sore throat?
bro: what?
sis: spit, don’t swallow
me: eh you still remember ah. so long ago. really what. haahah.

yea my bro and i fistbumped on that but he rolled his eyes.
he doesn’t like it when i get piercings, or when i curse..
he’s funny. a quiet-funny kinda guy, not a loud-funny (me) person.

so yea that’s about it i like my bro a lot! he’s really cute and funny and we stay up watching funny ads or soccer vids on youtube, or drum/percussion videos, or rollercoaster videos because we’re both terrified of it..

i think my brother hates me now.
-live update 2-
bro: why does everyone hate valentine’s day?
me: dno. k i be honest. cos im single
bro: then stop being like that lah? (as in being an asshole)

….
bro: online lah? a lot of websites..

Day 26 – A picture of something that means a lot to you.

Don’t know what means a lot to me, actually.
I know people mean a lot.. but things..?

We’re human.
We were made to adapt.

I’ve never felt much emotional attachment to any item in particular.

doing my part for the home.

so my family’s in the midst of removing the wallpaper from our living room. and.. it’s such a bitch.

oh.my.goodness. it isn’t as easy as tearing it off.
you still gotta use this damn metal scrape thing to scrape the sponge and GLUE off. which is really.. well i think i trained my left arm. my right arm isn’t that well coordinated. :/

i did a bit over 2 days.. and it was a good workout. also, i had a hard time getting up the ladder cos of my fear of heights, and seriously, how stable can a ladder be?

wallpaper on, glue and sponge remain!

took super long, and only managed the tiniest part of the wall. sigh. can’t imagine.

didn’t want the tiny specks of sponge in my nose haha. this was another day.. where i felt bad for going out, and decided to chip in and do stuff

i think it’ll take years before we remove this shit!

so if anyone comes to my place (while im away) and you see weird patchy yellows and butt ugly wallpaper bits, bear with it! i hate it as much as you do, i want to see my white wallllssss!!!!

brunch (again) at hatched

caught sarah and lye ee for brunch just before the smallest of us flew back.

had brunch w t.kbee at hatched too, but i’m just sooo lazy to think of a place to go.

it was nice listening to them talk about their lives while i just sat in silence eating eggs and toast. I’ve a certain fondness for eggs now, provided i can’t taste them. which means lotsa salt and pepper! and cheese and whatever. no peppers though, eew.

I guess it’s nice to have friends who can do the talking, and you sit back and listen, and think about stuff at the back of your head. don’t havta be the one talkin all the time.. so it was kinda nice.

plus the sun was out. i’d have gone swimming if not for my sunburn..

haha sunburnt! but arms look skinny here, so okay i’ll take it.

my philly. eggs with peppers (told them to remove it but they didn’t!), cream cheese, onions and bits of steak.

my percussion teacher. hah.

asians and their fingers, can’t keep it to themselves!

and then i went home and slept the day away.

Day 25 – A picture of your day.

brunch at hatched with lye ee and sarah. (=
a short 1.5hours, but great nevertheless.

x

random pics i found!

attended wicked on 6jan. really good seats too, worth the money.

shar and i (=

junny’s niece. amazing cutie. (yea how rare of me to dish out compliments like that) we got tiny red flowers and wove it into some band of sorts for her

she took this photo after putting it on my head. ahah.

waiting to marry le bf. gingy.

could sit all night watching the world go by.

met shy on mon w sis for brunch at pique-nique, taka.
bro: ohhh i know where that place is! it’s picnic! i thought it was picky nicky…

don’t think i did anything on monday night..

tues was spent racking my brains trying to write 750 words for one of the most important milestones in my life (so far). was supposed to have dinner at 7… but ate at 9. #fullofwin.jpg. was good catchin up w shy kim mohsen and kristle. and yea my sis too. haha.

went home and met friend-zoned boy, i. chilled at wcp mackers, then headed off to search for bakchormee at 130.. :/ hit jackpot at the 3rd location. came back, continued with the 750 words and slept at.. 7am. felt like i was in school. haha. okay i haven’t stayed up till 7 to do stuff in a long time i reckon.

woke up at 12, sent my stuff out and met friend-zoned boy again. went to the singapore mint. fml was cursing my way through because.. IT’S SO FREAKING BORING. i don’t know but what’s so fancy about.. coins? they take up space.. and why will you carry a $200 coin?? okay.. my hobbies are obviously too mainstream. lunch then went home to sleep (haha lunch at 4pm)

ttf came over because i didn’t wanna go out too much. time’s running out!! rarrr. so had dinner and just chilled w the family..

okay off to hunt for cheap clothes tomorrow with j, wish me luck x