wowzeeee

momsy let me take the car out today.
alone.

-pops champagne-

never saw this day coming.. i feel like writing a thank you speech. -grabs tissue and dabs eyes-

picked the boys from school (omg i feel so young/old at the same time). by boys i meant the 3 other relief-ers, and by school i meant tanglin. headed to west coast plaza to eat. they have pasta mania! wow. haha.

the other night i went to kbox w sis, chris, kim and marv. slept thru some parts cos i was so freakin tired. amazing though how i could sleep while they were making noise haha.

okay that’s all tyfyt.

xxxxxx

this time it feels strangely different.

life goes on

so today was my last day working as a relief teacher (cues awwww) and i’ve mixed feelings about it.

i’m happy because..
1) no more 6.15 am days!!!
2) no more feeling frustrated when i can’t get students to zip it.
3) no more reekin of oil when i head to the canteen. i’ve been taking my food away because i didn’t want to smell hehe.

sad because..
1) no more income…
2) i will miss my kids! they’re sooo cute. we’ve grown closer over the weeks and they’ve opened up and it’s really so heartwarming to see how much they’ve improved..
3) no more cheap canteen food! crap. going back to the land of $10 fried rice
4) no kids to entertain me. )=
5) the other 3 relief teachers in the EL depart crack me up soooo much. when the first one left his black shoes in the cab and he wore sports shoes. or another time where one of their shoes split and they were huddling in a corner and they were all like “OH NO OH NO” HAHAHA EPIC. and they taped the shoe and it looked utterly ridiculous…… or how 3 of them keep thinking i’m pissed. must be my face cos i’m pretty darn awesome.

i gotta say i think my grammar has improved. i’ve flipped a million supp books, came up w my own notes and examples (which was fun for me cos i came up with amazing examples, sth they’d laugh at haha)

that said, i was really surprised my 2 teachers (now colleagues) told me they received feedback about me from my students and it was pretty good. hooray!

i’m pretty glad that instead of teaching mega huge classes i got the chance to teach smaller groups of intl kids.. it was rly interesting..

oh right, here’s a photo we took on my laptop. we caught part of “what a girl wants” today. cute show, and i thought it’d be good if they watched a show with somewhat proper english, and they needed a ‘break’ from all the grammar lessons. while watching the show i was keeping tabs on how many times prepositions were used, job hazzard or what? well at least i’ve stopped nit picking on how the framing should be..

in a week’s time, it’ll be my turn to study. ah, life goes on.

love

look what i got on my desk today (=
box of food from my ex-tchr, now… colleague.

x
happy CNY everyone! i’ve attended 2 birthday parties over the weekend.. amazing. i want a party too. I WANT MY PRESENTS, PEOPLE. yes you read it right. -snorts- can i pls pls pls have a sea angel?

ps: it won’t stop raining, i need a boat…

and to the left, we have…

so 2 weeks have flown like CRAZY.
couldn’t even stop to catch my breath. i think exhausted might be the right word here, but i was enjoying myself.. probably need to take a day or two just to sleep though.

played tour guide to tom (probably the worst ever). he came to sg on monday night (2wks back) and we met on weds.
went to the esplanade and we took some shots. it was a wet and rainy day eurgh.

me being me i didn’t know what to say to him and i was SO POLITE HAHAHAHA.

so stressful okay, i didn’t know where to bring him to..

my amazing shot haha

there wasn’t much at the flyer so we just stoned and walked.

we had dinner at glutton’s bay and the stingray was a disappointment. thank goodness it’s his first time having it: no comparison!

walked over to city hall..

this is st paul’s cathedral i think

lovely skyline. cannot get enough of it, sorry. damn tourist i know haha.

ohh yeh i didn’t want tom to go on the flyer because 1) 30mins staring at the same thing, really?
2) if he’s unlucky he’ll be stuck for 6hrs. really isn’t good that guy has a non existent bladder

met on saturday again, crashed tommy’s party and it wasn’t too bad. chomp chomp was a disappointment. 2 strikes for lousy food! urg.

didn’t meet much that week cos schedule was pretty packed and i didn’t know if he planned anything BUTBUTBUT. he didn’t! and so in the 2nd week we met up more often.

on monday (17th) i decided to go meet him aft work. he wanted to go to sentosa.. told him to meet me at harbour front and…. for the 2nd time in my life, i fell asleep and missed my stop. the shittiest part was that bus 30 brought me on the ECP….. wanted to faint.

funny red stuff at USS

i think we kinda got more comfy w each other and we started making stupid remarks (ok, me, mostly…) walked to the merlion, which looked freaky. :/ ended up at the underwater world! the last time i went there was when i was 10.. geez.

played with the stingrays quite a bit. so manja! (= they’ll let you pet them as they swim by and all

saw many cute underwater creatures.

this reminded me of the GBR. i wanna go back and stone underwater!!! or get narc-ed.

freshwater fish. the alligator gar. cute!

highlight of the trip:

a sea angel -makes baby cooing noises-
they flap up and down and look sooo adorable!!

and this cuttlefish looking so.. blur. HAHAH.

really looks like squidward

spotted: patrick star

dragon fish? can’t remember what it’s called.

turtle of the day.

oh oh and we saw amazing jellyfish!

sea urchin. whoever knew that we’d see it on our plates..

the dolphin lagoon was closed by the time we reached.. sucha pity.. but still! managed to see them swimming. (=
went to the beach to take a stroll

sun had set but still pretty.

we were quite hungry so we headed back to vivo. had marche.. and then we sat down and just stoned the night away, pretty much. :/ left rather late haha.

on tues he went to the sci centre and then he came by for dinner after that.. erm here’s a picture of us. very compatible in terms of height HAHAHAHAH

and that’s when he’s slouching hmm

wanted to go to hort park and mount faber but parents said there was nothing to see so we went to ECP to fish. haha.

saw some cute cats

fluffyyyy

too strong a current, no fish! )= so we left and headed to geylang, visiting the different whoretels… took him to eat tau huay!

yum yum ((=

we met again on thursday!
story: tom wanted a stamp in his passport, and since msia was nearby he wanted to spend a few days there. but i told him it wasn’t safe for him and since all he wanted was a stamp i could get him one in a day.

met him after school (bloody drained already haha nearly everyday i’m going to school till the aftn, then meeting him till late) and we went to jb! took the bus in and walked around. STAMPED! there wasn’t much to see. was hoping to buy a few rings but there were none suitable!!

met up with marv and the rest and we went for dinner. yumyum. crayfish, crabs, kang kong, pork, buns…. went for drinks after that.

ta-dah. me being a klutz, i toppled the whole glass of sprite onto myself. -facepalm-

went to wash the cars and had lok lok while waiting. i didn’t eat any because i was soooo full. reached home at about 330 that day and i was up at 630 :/ was so thankful it was friday then, short day in school.

school was horrid!! )= was so damn tired i was mumbling to myself and singing to keep myself awake and i was being so random w my students…

fell asleep while waiting for tom to come over and…. i didn’t hear my phone ring god knows how long he waited :/ went to swim and just slacked by the pool till dinner.

brought him to ayer rajah food centre and ordered roti john, indian rojak and fish meat bee hoon. yumyumyum i miss the food there! was labeled “1/2 white” by the indian man. packed the food home and after showering we headed over to 1Altitude. since i promised him the awesome view..

lamley got us up and boy this time was more amazing! atmosphere, crowd. not too many people to make you feel suffocated, but enough to make the place lively.

hullo head chef!

hey shooting star!

us tgt w sammy, aka amazing door bitch

headed over to balestier for bak kut teh! not that i had any, but still..

saturday was spent having brunch and tea w mrs teo. quite amazed how we still keep in touch, and hey we can actually carry a proper conversation and joke

went home, showered and went for GAYA2011 at lasalle with luke. loved the choreo! beautifully put together by SMUKI. for one of the first times we were a minority! most around us were indonesian chinese. but it was really good (= had dinner after that, went to find wanto and we just stoned by the plastic grass patch.

caught shaolin at vivo w cass and lamley. good show! (= but rather gory, felt quite uneasy with all the blood. bleurgh. the next morn, 3 of us + tom went to have japanese steamboat buffet at iluma. and i don’t know how they did it but i actually tried sea urchin. jellyish and really soft! up next was ark-shell. or something like that. very very fishy. )= and then salmon roe. which was quite yummy w lemon actually. (= didn’t try the tuna/octo/yellowfin/scallops.. maybe another time.

walked over to bugis street. which was hell. eew))))= mad packed please! ate desserts at this.. idk where, but it’s at bugis junction. and somehow they convinced me to eat durian. -washes mouth- still don’t like the pungent smell, and the aftertaste!!!! srsly even aft hrs, when you burp….

went to the arcade. funfunfun. got my ass kicked. haha. then took a bus back to my place. had dinner at ayer rajah w sis, kim, marv and chris. then marv, chris, tom and i went to party world (haha). murdered everyone w our voices.

and that’s it for these 2 weeks. super long update, so much fun, though im soooo sleepy. i’m going to miss heading out to all the random touristy areas and pretending to be a tourist )= there’s still places i haven’t been to yet!

x
okay off to prepare for my next lesson!

my name is not cher

so i’ve been teaching for one week…
technically, today was my first class and boy was i nervous as hell.

i don’t know how teachers do it, i’ve no idea how to teach! i came up with notes in an hour, threw them into a ppt, and delivered my speech. and i’m kinda glad i’ve a loud voice cos i don’t havta strain it!

i look at the students and i kinda see myself in them. rebellious, noisy, loud, easily distracted, even sleepy.

finding ways to make my wardrobe less revealing lol. toughie everyday. tomorrow i’m taking the sec 1′s, i pray they’ll like me.

honestly i cannot see myself as a teacher. i laugh too much, i joke too much, i’d rather not be fierce to them because i don’t see the point. i’ve been in their shoes and i hated it too. like really fierce people, or people who show too much authority (is there such a thing?) okay maybe abusing authority and we all know that teenagers hate authority. i’d really rather be their friend… age gap, let’s face it.. i’ll figure a way outta this i guess hmm.

made friends with 2 malay boys who skipped class, reminded me of how the malay boys during my time would also skip class and they’d talk to me too lol. nice warm feeling (= it’s kinda like melbourne…

countless people asking me: malay or chinese? which is kinda.. idk. or even better “indian?” perhaps i’m really adopted. hah.

today was the day sec 4/5 students got their o level results and i didn’t stay back for long but i was reminded of how nervous i was back then. thank God it worked out okay in the end. (=

met feli today and we had a short but sweet 2.5 hrs of catching up. i’ve a knack for rings, so i bought a few more. anyone kind enough to fund my ring collection? and i’m secretly a magpie because i love shiny stuff.

ps: im so sleepy im talking to myself.

work.

so tomorrow i’m going to my ex-secondary school to work as a relief teacher of sorts.

1) hope i won’t get hungry at the most awkward moments
2) that i won’t get bullied
3) that i won’t fall…
4) i won’t be sleepy.

that.is.all.

also on newyr’s, cass accompanied me to may’s wedding and we went to find lamley after that. went up to 1Altitude and oh my god the view was a-fuckin-mazing.

62 storeys high, 360 deg view. mbs, flyer, esplanade, town, suntec, even china town lol. i could just stand up there and stone for hours.

okay that’s all i wanna continue stoning if i could.

disheartened

so uhm.
i just found out an ex-schoolmate got into a local uni.

and i’m feeling quite disheartened now..

1) same sec school.
i’m pretty sure I did much better than her…

2) same poly.
different course, I went into the course I wanted, she.. I don’t think that’s what she wanted but she got into engineering.

3) uni?
I’m overseas, she’s in a local uni.

there’s another friend, who was in my sec school, and he went to a normal jc (how many tanglinians can get into atas jc? atas like single digit jcs.. [vj, rj] actually should think how many of us could have gone to a jc too.. hmm.. another story for another day.)

and he’s now in a local uni too.

So, where did I screw up at?
at which point of my life did i not make the right decision?

Should I have gone to a JC instead? maybe then I could have def gone to a local uni.

But nope, here I am instead, in Melbourne. Still unsure of what I want to do in life.

Don’t get me wrong. I AM very thankful for my parent’s, supporting my decision, even though I wasn’t really sure it was what I wanted.

I was just like “eh. uni? just stay to do it privately like my sis?” and they told me go get my ass off to Melbourne.

I don’t really regret my choices so far, but this is one path I’m really thinking about..

Then again, it might just be pure envy, envying something I never had the chance to choose. Humans love choices, and I guess that’s where our downfall is. We’re never contented with what we have. And also I’m guessing people on the other side of the grass are thinking “crazy bitch, she gets to go overseas, into a fairly decent university, and she’d rather stay in Singapore and study in NUS/SMU/NTU?”

Ah well…..

Okay I guess I feel better after typing this.