Cutting my hair for a cause


Came across a ‘blog’ (I won’t dare to call it a site) where people donate their hair to make wig for cancer patients. I had hair, I wanted to help, so hey, grew my hair out. Easy, right?

Then I saw that by 1 jan they won’t accept any more hair donations. So I quickly dropped them an email (and seriously I should have known based on how they reply).


1) You have my name but choose to reply with just a ‘hi’. So I’ve already marked them as unprofessional. (Not rude, not yet anyway).

2) You’re stopping hair collection from 1 Jan, but from 4 Dec – 1 Jan, there’s no hair collection either. So… have I missed the boat completely? If you stop accepting donations from 1 Jan, surely the last collection date would be 31 Dec (i’m ignoring pub hols/festivities, and focusing on the date itself).

Never mind.. I try to reply nicely because I don’t really get the person’s reply. screen-shot-2016-12-30-at-4-50-53-pm screen-shot-2016-12-30-at-4-51-08-pm

So… okay, no dates but probably next Jan. fine. that’s just a few weeks away, and I should cut my hair before then! But this person doesn’t offer other info! No dates for collection at point A, but neither does he/she offer info on other collection date/points. I mean, I’m assuming people aren’t unreasonable, but if they’re free during X date etc, they’ll definitely make their way to pass their hair to you right?


And then comes a long ass reply…


Right. So many issues with this. Mostly because it is downright inefficient. Why not just do a collection once a month at one station at a specific timing? Eg, if it’s always at X train station, people will make their own plans around it what. Now you’re all.. oh u gotta email then we see how blablabla. And also, I get it. you’re volunteers, but don’t use it as an excuse as to why your replies are shitty, and I can’t get specific answers. All I want to know is where the next collection will be, and I’ll cut my hair by then and give it to you. It’s already 20 Dec, and you won’t be arranging collections from 1 Jan, so when is the last collection of yours?

Anyway, All these aside, I tell them that i’ll cut my hair on 24 Dec. So that they can prepare and mark their dates down and let me give them the hair.

My hair cut is a total failure but it could be because I dislike having short hair. Makes me feel like a man, doesn’t suit me etc. Nvm. For a good cause.

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I drop them and email with info they need on 24 dec itself, aft cutting my hair, and tell them I’ll contribute to the making of the wig (on the blog they state it costs up to $200 to make a wig).

I get a reply the same day (to be fair they are prompt with replies, but i don’t get why they cant’ address me by name??)


ARE YOU KIDDING ME? TAKES UP TO MOTHS? ok seriously this is beyond ridiculous.

I cut my hair before 31 dec so i can make it in time for your collection that ends 1 Jan, but now you tell me it’ll take a few months? Ok, say, March. MY HAIR COULD HAVE BEEN KEPT FOR THREE MONTHS MORE. This means the wig would have longer hair, the patient can have more choices for hair lengths. why the heck did i cut my hair only for you to say it’ll take months? Again, BAD PLANNING.

So I reply them… seriously irritated with their replies that don’t make sense. their process is so flawed. you guys are volunteers, I GET IT. I think i’ve been super patient the entire month.  but don’t use the fact that you’re volunteers as an excuse? If you’re time strapped, find a way to have a single collection at a single train station during a stipulated time period. you’re offering 4-5 stations, but can’t tell anyone when the collection will be. how is that informative at all?


I don’t think I’ve been unreasonable, been asking questions that just require answers (and not even long-assed ones, just need to know date, time etc. i’ll be there.) And of course.. the person who has been replying all this while.. can’t give answers, and decides to use the volunteering thing as a reason as to why their process doesn’t work well.


1) at least they let me know before hand. NO LEH. YOU LET ME KNOW AFTER I CUT MY HAIR. telling me before hand is on 3rd dec when i email you, or better yet, state it on your site. you’ve a site, what are you using it for then?

2) does it matter if i’m a student or adult? I still manage my time. I know what i’m doing next week. and two weeks from now. apparently time management skills is what the group lacks entirely.

3) once again, telling me you’re a volunteer. am i not one too, then? you think i cut my hair just for fun and decide to burden you with the collection?

4) you state the name of the wig maker, there are no numbers, no addresses (actually there are 2 numbers and addresses when i google), so which is it? You do realise there’s a reason why I’m asking you right? And even if i’m blind, would it kill to state the wig maker’s name in your email? Once again, best at siam-ing questions.

I eventually gave up replying, because everything is in their court. They won’t even tell you if your hair can be collected, and if so, when. So my hair is just sitting at home, looking disgusting in a plastic bag, because a group of volunteers can’t get its act together. And yes, it pisses me off. Their replies go in circles, they don’t get any questions answered.

Ok lor, what can I do? DIY. I’ve since called the wig maker and told the man I’ll go down on my own with the hair, and money to make the wig. I’ve also contacted the cancer society asking if there’ll be a patient who can get benefit from the wig. If all else fails, I’ll just throw the hair away. No biggie. Just really hate inefficiency.


Making tiramisu

Cass and I have a long-standing tradition of making something every year. Err. It includes making gummies, rainbow cupcakes, cheesecake and tutu kueh.

We don’t really give up. We’re happy with failing. -shrugs-

Anyway, we decided to do a no-bake thing this year, and thus, tiramisu. How difficult can be be right?

Got the recipe from here and realised hey, we have most of the ingredients! just needed the cream, biscuits and mascarpone cheese.

120ml strong coffee. We used instant powder! 3 tablespoon heaps.
60ml brandy/cognac. We used VSOP.
2 teaspoons vanilla extract
3  egg yolks
50g sugar
225g mascarpone cheese
175ml heavy cream. We just made sure it had at least 35% fat.
Ladyfingers (the biscuit, not the veggie.
Chocolate powder

It’s quite easy actually, just follow the recipe!

1) Add coffee with 2tbsp of brandy, and 1 tbsp of sugar. set aside.

2) Beat the egg yolks, brandy, sugar and cheese… this was the part we screwed up lol.

img_0641Doing it over a water bath. what you see here is batch two. batch one was a total failure because we didn’t know how hot the bath should be, if the yolks should be ‘cooked’ etc etc. it was a failure! the cheese started separating from the yolk oh my goodness. wanted to kill ourselves. but still, we pressed on! Got it right the second time thankfully! The mixture will increase in volume, and turn into this thick and slightly yellow goo.

3) Whip cream until stiff peaks form.

img_0643FYI you can over beat cream (and egg white). Cos it starts to curdle. lumps start to form. Yep, we failed at this part too! When you see it looking fluffy that’s enough.

4) Fold hald the cream mixture into the egg yolk mixture. Cass did this!

In the mean time, I dipped the biscuits into the coffee and lined our tin.

img_0646Do whatever you want man seriously. Since this doesn’t require baking, you can use any tray, any depth… soak the biscuits for longer… it’s rly up to you.


Partnership right there. I’d line the first layer with biscuits, cass will pour a thin layer of mixture, then i’ll dust cocoa, then line the biscuits again, and cass will pour another layer…img_0650






Put it in the fridge and next day.. yum yum! Everyone liked it and both of us were like.. omg first time ever. We’re looking for more things to do hur, just need willing bellies!

and then some…

Lots of random bits here and there! First up, weenie’s wedding. our primary school friend who MIA-ed when he got a gf.. img_0161

img_0165Not sure what happened there but hey I quite like long dresses, although they’re super hot. I think it’s cos it sometimes masks my height hahaha.

img_0258 Here’s my dad making a thank you card for parkway cancer centre. so cute. he cut the pictures out and glued them onto the card, and even practised his penmenship..



img_0266Soldier on, cancer warriors.

Then came the long awaited meet up with my giant. Gyoza and garlic rice for dinner, and 1/2 a cookie for dessert.


Josh: Where’s the present? I expected a present. That’s the only reason why I met you.


And then I stayed over at mandarin oriental for the night! Got my bro to stay over with me because I couldn’t bear the thought of sleeping alone in a hotel room T_T. Sigh.

img_0526Marina bay view room. Not too bad at all! 21st floor too! Highest floor in the hotel, reserved for club members…

img_0528The reason why isaac agreed to stay over: tub. tub. tub.


img_0532Warm welcome from the hotel! Lots of sweets… Didn’t finish it.


img_0535Guys I’m famous liao. hahahaha. It’s actually a small win for me when people get my surname right.

Anyway, went to the gym with cass. quite enjoy our routine! Plus, my aim: to look good naked. so there. -focuses on goal-

img_0537Came back to the hotel room and saw this. Salmon with caviar, foie gras with strawberry compote, and pumpkin. yum yum.

We went to chic a boo for dinner, and came back to see snacks! OM NOM NOM. pop corn, corn chips and potato chips. the staff must have worked really hard on this lah! Cos all the chips are the alpha males in the pack. no random bits that are chipped off or anything. Plus, the condiments… cheese, sour cream, guacamole, salsa!img_0543

A pity I fell asleep real early. Woke up next morning. Corn chips were gone. so were the guac and salsa.

Me: You ate it ah?
Bro: ya, while showering
Me: wtf? So u shower and open the door and eat, close door and shower…
Bro: no lah, i filled the hot tub, then sit in there and eat lor…

Guess some people really know how to enjoy life… I saw the sour cream and cheese, and decided to eat the popcorn with it. Mistake? Or not. I pooped 5x that day man. BUT IT WAS GOOOD. seriously, popcorn with melted cheese, so underrated. and now, popcorn with sour cream too! BUT EVERYTHING TASTES GOOD WITH SOUR CREAM!!!

img_0553Woke up for breakfast.. Yup.. i’m a fan. HAHAH GEDDIT GEDDIT. Cos mandarin oriental’s hotel layout is fan-shaped, and so is its logo..

img_0557Bro keeping it classy with a glass of milk.. lmao.

Was still early, check out is 12pm, which is quite generous of mandarin oriental! Went back to the hotel room to chill.. and bro decided to watch cartoons haha! So that we did!img_0558Set the alarm for 12pm hehe and we fell asleep after the cartoon ended.

Also, Maxwell has this tauhuay store. AFUCKINMAZING. I’ve been going there at least twice a week. Tauhuay costs $1.50. they give you 1/2 a tub. (you can’t see the depth in this pic). Sugar syrup given is just nice. There’s also one with black sugar but it’s too sweet for my liking.img_0561Anyway, what happened was.. I went to buy $2 of tauhuay.

Me: Can i have $2 tauhuay please?
Aunty: You mean the black sugar one?
Me: No, the normal one… just more.. -whispers- I really love your tauhuay

getting my (art) jam on

all hail painter char! woohoo!

no, seriously, i’m someone with no artistic talent. my handwriting is shit, i don’t know how to mix colours, blah. i am good at fixing stuff though!

ok anyway! Went to get out paint on at mandarin gallery. at arteastiq. Costs $48 for 3 hours. gets you a 50×50 canvas, unlimited paint, a set of paintbrushes you can keep, apron (you can take this home too).

Fretted for a bit cos I didn’t know what I wanted to paint. I know I wanted something to do with water… something like blancpain’s ad:

But yknow, I can’t paint for nuts… OR MAYBE I CAN? Anyway, decided not to take the risk… and then I wanted to paint this:

SO PRETTYYY. but then the girl said it’ll probably be difficult to paint. which is true cos i’ve never painted before lehhh. hahaha! flipped through the booklets and found this instead!

img_0390It’s by leonid afremov, and this was one of the easiest paintings he did! his paintings are damn awesome lah, dots of bright colours and shit. anyway, i didn’t want to butcher his work… so i picked something i had a higher chance of completing.

img_0385First up: drawing the boat! LMAO took me 1 min to draw it.

img_0386proud of my boat. cos yknow… must celebrate every achievement just before i ruin things..

img_0391Gradient making.. kinda fail. and at first they didn’t have white paint (yah totally blaming the lack of white paint instead of my skills ahhaa)

img_0392Added a lil green.. then realised it didn’t work… like.. nice blue sky that’s threatening to rain.. and wild moss appears. totes unbelievable.

img_0393All covered up!!!


img_0421by this time the girl found white paint and hooray, the master artist is back in action!!

img_0438hello boaty! Didn’t expect myself to colour the boat in this manner. actually i was panicking and then i used my tissues to wipe the paint off but what dyou know, a nice gradient formed. maybe that’s how it came about in the first place. artist spills paint, panics, then cleans it up hastily, but woohoo! boo-ti-foollll…. and to the top left you see what looks like diarrhoea? YEA I RUINED IT. i tried to add the colouful drops of paint and then it was butt ugly so i had to cover it up. T_T

img_0440covered everything and added my name. haih!

img_0444Anyway, long story short, i finished my painting way earlier than expected, and so I decided to give my blotches another go. I’m not sure if it was the right thing to do…


img_0468Oh well. paint finish liao. nothing can be done. I didn’t wanna go paint a fourth layer hahahaha.

And meanwhile… the fellow painters who all have hidden artistic talents….


img_0396Mad skills. from left to right. donald trump (haha i kid it’s actually salmon sushi), cherry blossom tree, and a sky of moss.






img_0404SUSHI TRUMP! Just gotta add two shoyu drops for the eyes! cannot unsee. i kept making fun of j’s painting and i felt slightly bad but at the same time.. i’m childish like that. GOOD ON YOU J FOR NOT PUNCHING ME!

img_0428such perfect circles. srsly how did she do it.

img_0431even kx was thinking it too. but look how her tree has grown~~



img_0452panda was the last to finish her work. haha whoever knew painting moss needed time right. but if you think that’s weird, here’s the picture panda chose to copy…

img_0481dafuq. totes don’t see any resemblance there panda. probably colour blind. which reminds me, sj wasn’t with us, and i wondered what he would have painted..

img_0483Three hours later… here are our works! Not bad I think. haha. They look gorgeous from afar, but far from gorgeous!

As they say in chinese… 远看朱丽叶,近看猪八戒

Wise words indeed… Anyway, went home to hang my painting! Got the bro to help staple some rope onto it hahha.




Welcome home! ((= Painting looks lonely there, may transfer this to above my TV, and the painting of my family to this wall (But first, to secure that piece with.. something sturdy, otherwise it’ll fall on my neck when I’m asleep wtf.

Nano lego: hulk

Had some spare time on my hands last night and so I decided to get crafty haha.

Ok so this is fake Nano lego. Whatever. I bought it for 100thb in Bangkok in… uh may? Also bought Loki and ironman!

Remember seeing cyclops but no wolverine…

Anyway, first time doing this I wondered if I would screw up, get upset then throw it away lol. 190 pieces! (And a few extra for good measure)

Instruction booklet…

So I was quite worried about how it would look cos it is a knock off plus the picture makes it look like “you get what you pay for” but hey the head looks quite cute! Bad angle maybe…

Done with the body!

Tiny hulk feet

One hour later…!

Here’s hulk doing a victory dance.

I had quite a lot of fun doing it, but the problem is that it collects dust just sitting there… and I dislike collecting things hur so maybe I’ll just throw it away when I’m cleaning my room…

Four Seasons Jakarta

So uhhhh this was in August!

Had a last minute trip to Jakarta, and it’s also the first time I didn’t step out of the hotel. Was doing work non-stop. Also, didn’t help that there were some r/s issues then, which put me into a frenzy, but turns out it was bad internet connection. Uhh.

Anyway, t3! crazily long walkway, there’s a sky train to take you to the end but I walked because.. it’s always good to exercise!img_5761


Can’t even remember what airline I took. Garuda, maybe? Curry chicken and veggies.

Fell asleep on my way to the hotel. Ooops. Hello Four Seasons! My first time staying in a FS property, I usually stay at $20 a night hotels hahahah. #elcheapo

So this is what I see after coming through the door and turning left! Toilet to the left, open wardrobe to the right, then twin sinks, hot tub, and shower!

img_5772Got hot tub which means.. must use… but then I somehow managed to flood the entire bathroom. had to sit in the bathrobe and wait for cleaners to come while I explain that.. I don’t know what I did!

img_5770I also spent a lot of time here. hahaha. IBS!.


It’s a one-bedroom suite. And what I really like is that the interior isn’t brown/yellow. I really dislike hotels with those kinda interior, I prefer shades of grey, cream, white… just makes the place look a whole lot brighter! (ok la lighting is yellow uhh)


Living area that opens up to the bedroom. Not a bad place to be in. There’s an office desk where I spent most of my time too. The only thing is that, there are more than 5 mosques nearby, and the call to prayer is really loud. And it goes on for quite a while. I don’t hear that much in Singapore, but over here, I woke up one night feeling really scared cos I wasn’t sure what the sound was. Through the glass windows it felt like a man was groaning in pain T_T. Only realised what it was in the morning. phew phew. And yes I slept with the lights on cos #humji.

img_5785Super big bed sob sob why nobody to accompany me hurrr. my dream is to have a man follow me wherever I go HAHAHAH.

img_5776Dresser by the entrance..

img_5777Walk in wardrobe… I just had my carry-on luggage..



img_5782View from my room.. Swimming pool! And there’s a garden terrace, for cocktail parties, ROM…

img_5783oh thank you thank you. I love little notes like these! I always keep them. Bring them back to Sg and put into a folder. (= I tried their fruits btw, cos I’ve not seen some before, had to try it. Some were really sour, some.. I didn’t know if I should eat it or not, looked like period blood clot UHH.

Ok enough about the room. The interior of the hotel is amazaballs not even kidding. 
img_5786I’m not much of a colour person, the only reason why I look presentable is because my clothes are very basic haha. whoever knew that burnt orange and dark teal could go together? NOT ME. and marble tables, patterned floors, textured compass roses. what in the world. only a genius could do this lah!

and there’s the patissiere… you see little hints of gold (indos love their gold!) but it’s not too overwhelming. and the mix of blues hoho…
The driveway is quite big. not bad, considering it’s a city hotel.img_5797Gamelan! never got to play it in uni though..


Oh, there was only one place in the hotel for food, so I had all my three meals there..

img_5815I had oatmeal on two days. Pathetic but my stomach can’t eat oily / heavy food in the morning. And ddin’t have much of an appetite. I’ve never had oatmeal this way, i usually just eat oats with water uhh. Maybe I’ll ask my mum to do it like that?

Dinner though, was another thing altogether. It was the only time I’ll leave my room. Hermit T_T.
img_5801I had caesar salad! yummyyy i love salad lah. i like the iceberg lettuce actually, and grilled chicken. and sun dried tomatoes and shaved parmesan.. a soft boiled egg to top it would be awesome ahah.

img_5802A lil black. STEAK. with super yummu mash. and garlic.. omg… all places should serve steak with garlic pls

img_5803I ordered creamed spinach as a side and wah, i think 3-4 mouthfuls did me in…

Highlight of the restaurant though:
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Pretty chandeliers! I really love the high chairs too. curved for that added bit of privacy.. dark forest green..

I wouldn’t mind staying there again, the room is huge.. spacious… but it’s for couples. There are two entrances to the bathroom. One is through the side (where you see the closet) the other is by the bathroom.. So what if u r showering but then your friend comes in from the left (imagine they’re deaf so can’t hear the water lol). humhum. i dno. defeats the purpose if there’s only one door.. but who knows. I can imagine it to be a lovely hotel for couples. Large rain shower… super comfy bed… I think I’m very easy to please ahahah.

Ok bye for now

Birthdays suck

I’ve always dreaded my birthday. the day before is fine, but the day itself is usually filled with sadness. A crazy amount, to be exact.

This year proved to be the worst. I thought after our trip, things would go well, we’d have learnt more about each other. We agreed to get to know each other better, and then slowly plan for the future, whatever it would bring. We’ve been through the good times, and I braced myself for the bad.

I didn’t expect ‘bad’ to mean, throwing it all behind and leaving before even things started. I cried my eyes out, pleaded for answers. I guess I can’t understand….

We’ve everything going against us. Age, language, the foggy future due to the other two factors. He told me he doesn’t think he can give me what I want, he doesn’t know what I want, how I’ll be able to find a guy better than him. Younger, smarter, richer… He didn’t want this relationship. He didn’t want me anymore. He kept saying he didn’t want me to be sad, that this would be better for me in the long run, and he knew, because he was older than me. And he said I was a good person, and that he’ll miss me.

It hurt. And it still does. But I’m not done with this, not just yet anyway. We’ve only just begun. Of course I was heartbroken, disappointed, that he wanted to walk away from it. I guess I’ll never understand why we even got together in the first place. I knew it’d be an uphill climb, but I’m not sure about him.

We’ve agreed to work things out slowly and tackle issues as they come. But something inside me still feels… broken. I’m afraid to say anything for fear that he’ll just decide to call it quits once again. It has been a crazy, crazy week where I’m quite a wreck. I’m jittery when he doesn’t respond, I’m jittery when he does (just in case he messages to tell me he can’t do it anymore). I check my phone to see if he has read my text, wondering if he has not just so he doesn’t need to deal with me.

In turn, I’ve become this weak, clingy shell of a woman who wants nothing more than to make things ‘ok’ again.

Is this what it’s like to live in fear, then? I’m afraid the next time we argue, I’ll get yet another text telling me he hates it when I’m sad because of him, and he can’t give me happiness. Wow, this fucking stings.

Truth is, words are cheap, and no amount of words could possibly even begin to express the confusion on my head. Why is he back with me, then? Because he couldn’t say ‘no’ enough, because he feels sorry for me?

I don’t know what can be done to ‘fix’ this looming anxiety… It’s really killing me inside but I don’t think anyone, even him, can fix it.

Happy 26th, char. </3